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After the tragic death of Stephen "tWitch" Boss in December 2022, his widow, Allison Holker, made a shocking discovery about her husband's private struggles. In an emotional interview, Holker revealed how she uncovered a hidden stash of drugs, including mushrooms, pills, and other substances, while cleaning out their home. This discovery left her heartbroken, as she realized how much Boss had been hiding from her and others.
A Shocking Discovery
Weeks after Boss' death, Holker was cleaning out their closet with a dear friend when she came across the hidden drugs. The moment was incredibly difficult for her, as she had no idea her husband had been battling such struggles. "It was a really scary moment in my life," Holker recalled, explaining that it helped her understand the extent of Boss' pain and the shame he may have felt about hiding his issues.
The Hidden Struggles
Throughout their nine-year marriage, Holker believed she and Boss shared an honest and open relationship. While she knew about his marijuana use, she had no idea that he had been struggling with more serious addictions. Holker revealed that Boss had been self-medicating to cope with deep emotional pain from his childhood. His journals, which Holker read after his death, hinted at traumatic experiences he had never fully processed, including childhood abuse.
"He didn’t want others to take on his pain, but it was overwhelming for him," Holker said, expressing empathy and sadness for her late husband's hidden struggles.
Seeking Healing and Clarity
As Holker reflected on her husband's secret life, she gained a new understanding of his pain. While the discovery was painful, it also gave her the clarity she needed to process his struggles. She hopes her story will help others who may be silently battling their own demons.
Holker also shared that she hopes people struggling with mental health issues will seek help and not stay silent. Her new memoir, This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light, due to be released in February, details her own healing journey and the difficult experiences she faced growing up. Through her book, Holker encourages others to reach out for help and understand that it’s okay to not be okay.
Coping with Loss
Holker described the pain of losing her husband, but she also shared how her children have shown remarkable strength in dealing with the loss of their father. She acknowledged that her children, especially her teenage daughter Weslie, have handled the grief with grace. Holker emphasized the importance of being open and supportive when someone is going through difficult emotions.
Moving Forward and Raising Awareness
Holker's goal now is to raise awareness about the importance of mental health and self-care. She has teamed up with organizations like the National Alliance of Mental Illness to help others find resources for healing. She believes that mental health struggles can affect anyone, and it's crucial to support those who may be quietly suffering.
"I’ve learned there’s so many other resources that a lot of people don’t know about," Holker said. "People that have a lot of light, they still have gone through a lot of dark."
In her book, Holker urges people to embrace their emotions and take the necessary steps toward healing. "It's important just to be an open vessel to them when they're going through it," she shared.
Conclusion
Allison Holker’s journey of loss, discovery, and healing continues to inspire others. Through her memoir and public advocacy, she hopes to bring attention to the struggles that people, like her late husband Stephen "tWitch" Boss, may hide. By sharing her story, Holker aims to offer support to those who may be going through similar battles.
